Love your work, love your ministry
Nicky X

I wish this ministry was around when I was making massive mistakes instead of seeing mass conversions and revival in my life and my friends. Then again, God’s plan is perfect and decades later He would, appropiately place a compilation of dvd’s in my hands that TOTALLY CHANGED MY LIFE!!!! Not to mention, anyone who came near me long enough to watch! LOL!

I was a dead Christian for a long time. Went to church, involved in numerous Bible Studies, was involved in church, prayed… I was numb. The hurts from years gone by paired with the sins of my youth destroyed my perception of a God who truly desired to transform me. I never knew of a God that loved me no matter what. The religion of my youth left me numb and doubting the abilities of God and His true intentions for I only knew Him as the God of wrath.

Many years later… Married, a beautiful little boy, recent relocation to a small rural city in Florida, Okeechobee and a floundering business. My life had plundered into the deepest depression I had ever experienced… and a woman by the name of Ashley entered my life.

I struggled coming from a huge metropolitan area and living in this beautiful small town. I was raised completely different and the ministry that God placed in my life many years ago gave me hope and faith to dream and believe God for big things. I struggled with what God was speaking to my spirit and the limited thinking of so many around me. I began to doubt my relationship with God until…

In the midst of a move I found an old version of Experienceing God. Always wanted to do it, but never had the opportunity. Met Ashley for lunch that day and in conversation shared how she felt led to facilitate Experiencing God. I shared how I just found this book and really felt called to just do this study NOW! We laughed.

Ashley, was my gift from God. Ashley was my breath of fresh air! Powerful, beautiful, hopeful, BIG THINKER… She is simply awesome! I pair our meeting right their with giving birth! She is so simply wonderful!

The significance of Ashley in this blog is that she was obedient and we began that study 3 weeks later. When we reconnected for the second week she shared with us a dvd called Indescribable. I just sat their and cried.

God had just revealed to me the details of my sexual abuse as a little girl. I had no recollection of this for decades until my son was sexually abused. God, in His infinite wisdom, allowed me to experience Him in preparation for the details of this horrible event. I was struggling so deeply with both situations when I watched that dvd.

I was one of those women who looked like she had it together, but was absolutely falling apart inside!

I left Ashley’s that day, praying because I knew I needed that dvd asap. Unfortunately, living in a small rural town does not allow for the resources to make this possible. So I thought.

As I was praying, I was reminded of a friend who really needed prayer and felt led to stop by her house and share what God was reveling to me through this Bible study and of course this dvd I just saw. We prayed, shared and laughed. She then asked me if I could return a set of dvds to Ashley…. and then placed your dvd compliation in my hands! I WAS ABSOLUTELY BLOWN AWAY!!!!!! God is faithful!

I shared all of these dvds, as I said prior with EVERYONE who would listen to me long enough! At first, my favorites were Indescribable and How Great is Our God. As time went on I became overwhelmingly in love with Hope: When Life Hurts Most and Fruitcake and Ice Cream. It took me a few, but soon discovered part two of Hope: When Life Hurts Most.

What I failed to mention, is that when I began Experienceing God, I felt led to put everything down and spend all my time with Him. That meant work, too, which was hard because of our financial situation at the time. Normally I would ignore that, but I chose to be obedient.

I spent days studying, praying, reading my Bible and other resources, watching your dvds repeatedly, etc. God provided EVERYTHING that we needed during that time. Like I would have expected differently. LOL!

My mom had been sick for years. I had cared for her off and on for over 7 years. We had drawn very close, which is inevitable given the situation. After going blind and reacclimating from becomming an amputee, I finally was able to join my husband in the town we had relocated to 2 1/2 years prior.

I would travel back and forth whenever she needed something and/or for business. In October of 2010 my mother was hospitalized with congestive heart failure, while visiting my sister. At 4 am I rushed to be with her. Upon her release, she returned home. Two weeks later, I rushed my mom to the hospital for heart failure. She received a pacemaker and released a week and a half later.

Life resumed, I continued to spend everyday while my son was at school and husband at work, seeking God. I assumed God wanted me to heal from the sexual abuse of my past. Unbeknownst to me, I would receive a call, December 21st at 12:30am that my mom had passed away. I, of course, rushed to her.

It never dawned on me what God was truly preparing me for.

I was amazed by the peace I had, although sad and missing her, I was grateful she was home. God continued to reaffirm me in my faith and reminded me that my mom was in heaven because of a decision my sister and I made years ago. He gave me visions of her running, being reunited with her mom and her birth mom. These were things I never believed in prior to all of this.

Many, many times I was reminded of Ashley Akinn’s story. (Fate be it, I had finally returned the dvds to Ashley 13 days prior to my mom’s death.) I remembered how excited my nephew and I were when we found out Ashley’s father had received Christ. I would spend days seeking to understand so much and find myself comforted by the memories of the journal entries you read.

This has been the hardest experience of my life. I am so grateful for my introduction to your ministry. God reminded me that He was preparing me for this for months prior to her death. While worshipping at church, singing a Chris Tomlin song, I found myself overwhelmed with peace, thanking and praising God for His healing power and restoration. Things I might not have been able to grasp prior.

A few days after my Mom’s death, my best friend (whom watched the dvds at my house over Thanksgiving weekend) surprised me with tickets to see Chris Tomlin. Unbeknownst to us, your name was on the tickets when she received them. WE WERE TOTALLY STOKED!

Eve lost her mother to cancer, 9 years ago. She never really dealt with the loss of her mom until the dvds and my mom’s passing. She became my rock as I began journeying through all of this. We shared a lot and have been able to see God work through tearing down years of “rot” and “decay” in her life. She is now being freed by the power of God. He is truly restoring the years the locust had eaten.

We thoroughly loved the show in Palm Beach, at the Cruzan amphitheater. Everyone was so amazing! You absolutely blew our minds. We laughed about where we had come from and the last few shows we saw at the amphitheater. (ie. Incubus, Ozzfest, etc.) WE HAVE COME A LONG WAY!!!!

I show the video that someone downloaded to Youtube to everyone I can! Sorry if that is wrong, but so many do not know how truly amazing your ministry is! I spoke with so many people in Okeechobee, just an hour away from West Palm Beach, who either had not heard about you or did not know about the tour! THAT IS SUCH A TRAVESTY!!!

Thank you for your honesty regarding depression. God healed me that night! I had never experienced anything so powerful! I literally could not stop trembling!

Your transparency was so powerful for two women facing loss, suffering from depression and struggling to overcome our past! I thank you from the bottom of my heart for the amazing ministry that God has created through you and the various artist whom are on your label!

Today, I am so much stronger, better wife, mom watching God run with my business/ministry!!!! The Lord just keeps reveling Himself to me and allowing me the privelege of witnessing to others whom have lost a loved one. It has been such an amazing experience for me! I HAVE FOUND PASSION AND VISION FOR MY LIFE! I HAVE BEEN RESTORED! NO CHAINS ON ME!!!

Thank you for your commitment to share with us a God, in a capacity that no other could express to the fullness that God expresses Himself through you! You are a mighty vessel being used incredibly by God! Thank you!

I am sorry this is so wordy! Had a lot to say to you! From the bottom of my heart, in the deepest respect, my heart is so overwhelmed with love and gratitude for you and all who are involved in making this ministry happen! Until the whole world hears…

I AM ALSO A RECORDING ARTIST AND YOU CAN GO TO http://WWW.CAPRICORN STUDIOS AND SEE MY WORK THERE.
I ALSO HAVE A CHRISTMAS,WOMAN AND ANOTHER ALBUM TO COME OUT THIS YEAR- IT’S APTLY CALLED ‘AMAZING GRACE’ – I WORKED ON THESE WITH A TRUELY TALENTED BAPTIST YOUTH PASTOR -NICK CLEVELY.
I PRAISE GOD FOR SENDING HIM AS A MISSIONARY TO ST HELENA ISLAND.

GOD BLESS YOU LOUIE AND YOUR WIFE AS YOU CONTINUE TO LIFT UP JESUS!

WITH LOVE IN CHRIST
TAMMY WILLIAMS