Every day, up to eight times a day, I silently perform a 1-3 minute spiritual ritual that is – quite literally – changing me. Now in my early 50s, I have decided it is the single most vital personal habit I have formed to date. According to my wife, I am becoming a different man.
photo courtesy of Anna Siran Wilt
Spiritually igniting, robust yet simple, the habit that is changing me is called the “Daily Examen.”
The Daily Examen is just one example of Ignatian spirituality and, in particular, the Spiritual Exercises. The Examen is…
…A technique of prayerful reflection on the events of the day in order to detect God’s presence and discern his direction for us. The Examen is an ancient practice in the Church that can help us see God’s hand at work in our whole experience” (www.ignatianspirituality.com).
My Journey Out Of The Distracted Life
I suffer from what I call EBN – Excessive Brain Noise. At any given moment, a plethora of ideas, impression, intuitions, conversations, projects, tasks, and images are running through my mind.
The waters of my soul, in accord with this, are always stirring and sometimes – in a froth and a frenzy – splashing.
Quietude, awareness of the presence of God, self-awareness of my shifting emotions, attention to the influence of my strengths and weaknesses on my decisions and actions, are often out of my reach.
Over my lifetime, I have discovered and rediscovered some very helpful tools that work for my ongoing reorientation, with the Daily Office (not to be confused with the Daily Examen) leading the pack.
However, it took the Daily Examen of Ignatius to bring me to my knees in thanks for a moment-by-moment deliverance from a main enemy of sustainable faith in our time – distraction.
Much of my work and life centers around screens – my laptop, my phone, and my apps. The level of daily distraction can cause me to miss hours and hours of reflection as emotions layer on emotions, distractions feeding small-story thoughts that pull me from Christ, slowly but surely.
A Reorienting Rhythm
The Daily Examen is my go-to remedy for that disorientation. I follow the 5-step process below that I have now memorized (this is so important), and can scale it from being a 1 minute exercise to being a 15 minute exercise.
It is a portable liturgy, a reorienting rhythm, that I do it in my bed as I drift off to sleep, wake in the morning, drive in my truck, and walk in my office in between projects and emails.
I carry it in my heart with me on airplanes, into meetings, and on walks.
It is renewing in times of rest, stabilizing in times of crisis, and focusing in times of ministry.
While I first learned the Daily Examen during my Masters studies at St. Stephen’s University, it has only been in the last 3 years that I began to use it sporadically. Then, in the last 6 months, it has literally become a spiritual lifeline.
The Daily Examen
Here is the Daily Examen, adapted from Ignatius’ spiritual exercises and personally re-written in simple form.
Ignatius believed the Daily Examen was a gift from God (as do I), and wanted his Jesuits to practice it twice every day – during the noon hour and at the end of the day.
Personally, I do a 1-3 minute version of it at least 5-8 times a day. I would encourage you to memorize it, and begin to use it at least twice a day for one month to build the habit. If you can do it more, then do it.
Here are the 5 steps, ready to memorize:
- Be Still – become aware of the presence of God.
Become aware of the presence of God, with you and in you. Use a breath prayer (Richard Foster, Eastern Orthodox tradition), if it helps you, praying as you breathe in, “You are here, Lord” and as you breathe out, “And I am with You.”
- Give Thanks – review the past hours with thankfulness.
Review the past 3 hours (or the space between this examen and the last) and give thanks for every detail you can think of. “That kind word,” “That answered prayer,” “That painful email that gives me another opportunity to trust You,” “The taste of that coffee,” “The provision to get gas this morning,” “That dream that showed me where my heart is at,” “That music I listened to,” “That physical pain that is awakening me to my need to stretch more.” Get good at identifying the details, and the gift within them. Nothing is too small to be grateful for.
- Reflect – become aware of your emotions.
Ask, “How am I coming to this moment?” Name the emotion you are feeling, or the various ones you felt over the past hours. Then, give each one to the Lord. Invite Him into those emotions, and welcome Him to turn them toward His ends. You can also ask yourself here, “Did I choose Jesus’ way in that situation?” If you did choose Jesus’ way in a situation, rejoice. If not, examine your heart for sin, and choose to make amends.
- Pray – choose one feature of the day so far, and pray.
Then turn your heart to choose one joy, or sorrow, or area to pray about. Give it to the Lord completely.
- Hope – look toward the next hours with expectation.
Tell the Lord that you hope in Him for the next hours ahead. See the next tasks with expectation that God will be good, that you will notice His work in the situation, and that His will – will be done. Pray “Let Your Kingdom come, let Your will be done.” End with trust. Reorient to trust.
The Real Spiritual Results
There is no hocus pocus to this – many other patterns of attentiveness to God’s presence and work may function quite well. For me, however, this simple 5 step pattern is enabling me to slowly acquire a number of spiritual life elements I’ve desired for decades (in no particular order):
- Intimacy with Christ is sweeter; all day long we are in loving conversation. The Daily Examen is deepening my greatest desire – that of intimacy with God – and satisfying it at the same time.
- Days are not passing in a blur; I’m remembering the details as I’m constantly re-approaching them with gratefulness every few hours. I’m becoming more mindful and aware of what treasures God has been sending my way.
- I’m becoming more self-aware; my emotions are not layering one upon another until I get to the end of a day and don’t understand why I’m in the mood I’m in (or my body is feeling the way it feels).
- I’m looking forward to the next moment with God; I’m actually craving the reorientation moments, and I’m not waiting for moments of euphoria or achievement to make my day worth living.
- Worry is less common for me; trust is being revisited every few hours, and I’m not forgetting how to be a real Christian.
- Discernment seems higher, quicker, and more fluid; I’m aware of God’s presence, and sensing Christ leading me to say this, do this, contact this person, make this decision.
- Scattered moving from thought to task is minimized; I’m living a quieter inner life that is less frenetic.
- Companionship with Jesus feels more real and substantial; the reality of Christ’s nearness and indwelling is richer and more manifest to my mind and heart.
- It helps me go to sleep as my mind focuses; I often drift off while giving thanks for the details of the day (what a great way to go to sleep).
- I’m not reacting as emotionally to my circumstances; as a high “feeler” (INFP on the Myers-Briggs), this is a big deal.
There are many other fruits, including the probability that my brain is changing as gratefulness becomes my psychological center and the lens through which I’m seeing life. The science of neuroplasticity tells us that our mental habits can literally change our brain’s physiology – and there are signs that is happening to some degree for me.
Perhaps my neural dopamine triggers and pituitary endorphin releases are quietly changing in obedience to Christ – and a new, holy habit? What I do know is this – old “go-to” thoughts (I’ve battled severe depression much of my life) are slowly dissipating as new “go-to” thoughts take their place.
Leading Ourselves First
Jesus is preparing a Church to lead and love from the place of intimacy, passion, hope, self-awareness, a renewed heart and mind, heroism, ingenuity, love, and wisdom in a rapidly evolving world.
I believe that, both personally and corporately, formative habits like the Daily Examen will help us both lead ourselves – and then lead others – into new tomorrows of God’s design.
Question: Have you used the Daily Examen before, personally or in a group, and how has it impacted you?